This morning my sister was “try to make conversation” by asking me why on earth I even want to have a wedding when we have thousands in debt because of [hub's] school loans.

I said it was my decision to go thru that rite of passage and nothing she will say will change my mind. However, she didn’t let up by insisting that being debt-free (and unmarried via the church way) like her, is better which made me lose my temper. Again.

i do realize that:
1) i have read a bit more in what she was saying, altho im pretty sure it was what she implied; by saying so, she belittles my belief & decision to do the church wedding.

2) had i shut up instead and tuned her out, it wouldn’t have made me lose my temper even more, because i screamed at her for 15mins straight at the top of my lungs. ive done this to one person (her) a total of 4 times. i feel like shit everytime, but im at that point that i really see red and i cant stop. good thing i dont hit her at all. I feel like screaming like crazy is just a little better than hitting her, although I don’t really think it works. To rephrase that: it does not.

3) not all her life-decisions are clear cut and perfect so why should i even bother listening to her, esp to her crappy unsolicited advice?

However, there had been 3 or 4 occasions in the last 60 days wherein i had jumped the gun and attacked people at the jugular with what they had said, or even implied.

My sister brings it out of me the most. Especially since our last three arguments in which i yelled out at her to shut up was basically me losing my temper after i kept begging her that i dont want to talk/argue about it anymore, for 15 mins. and she wont let up.

A few days before Christmas, my aunt also gave me an earful about making plans for my cousins car (i had found parking for it in our complex, instead of driving it all the way to my aunts 40mins away– because my sister was taking over the car when she came back from her trip after xmas). Not only did i feel like she was treating me like a child who could not make sound decisions, it even came to a point where she was throwing indirect criticism towards the hubs that I lost my temper. I did not yell at her, but I did cry afterwards.

Another time was when I wrote a badly phrased facebook status. It was directed towards the hubs, who didnt even really read it, probably. Point was, it was to say internet is crappy, and not from his perspective of crappy, which is AT&T/TimeWarner crappy, which is pretty darn good by PI standards.

However, two persons reacted badly and pretty much said something like (this is my weakness , i can never repeat verbatim, which means, when i paraphrase, some of the meaning is lost or colored up badly):

- Hey hey we’re all in the PI. Does that mean we’re all fucked by default?
- Even with spotty internet, if i were in the PI, I wouldnt complain.

AS IF!

1. I wrote that only as a “you should feel good about your internet bec someone out there (me) has the worst connection evar”
2. It was NOT a hater commentary on the PI and its people, services etc
3. and i sooooo hate people who go, “well, idk about you, but im doing this and im cool (and youre shallow, whiney and lame).” etc etc maybe ive been spoiled for lotsa sympathy for my whiney posts, but some people, such as the poster of the latter , can be plain douches. It was my first time to post a tagalog swear word (and making it public makes ME look bad, altho i deleted it right after i posted it, but only after i was sure he read it.

And to further justify my kupal hirit… he had been commenting weird shit the past few weeks on my statuses as well. This certainly shut him up.

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We’re on the last leg of the legal hullaballo attached to our marriage. aside from my big move here in
april, mark and i had tied the knot, moved to a new abode, filed for my petition, applied for my ssn, my drivers license. last stop is our interview.
man, fixing all that is a job in itself!
ive tried learning flash & some simple coding and pushing for freelance jobs, problem is, my relatives who want a website dont seem to know what they want.
on top of all the parties, and my new obsession: baking, i havent really much time for myself.
adjusting to married life was pretty easy…mark and i have stayed together in 2005, 2007-8, and now in 2009. i had expected some resistance from my family but they seemed pretty liberal minded about it. Esp my new mother-in-law, who, in the past few years is proving to be one of the most caring women i have ever met.
She takes me shopping a lot but even conversing with her over a cup of coffee in an afternoon is a nice way to relax. She makes a lot of sense. If it weren’t for her, i’d be incredibly homesick for my mom & yaya…altho my mom would probably take this the wrong way should she be reading this. she should know that no one can ever replace one’s own mother.
I bet Mark feels the same about his mom even if they dont agree on a lot of things.
The important thing is, we all constantly learn from each other and are willing to live and forget and love.
This I hope we can imbibe in our children someday and live passionate real lives & not mimick apathetic teenagers from the celluloid screen.

Host Janelle So interviews Lilledeshan Bose regarding use of social networking sites to raise awareness, disseminate news, and spur a global relief effort for victims of typhoon ‘Ondoy’ (Ketsana):

Defined, the online version of Merriam-Webster’s dictionary states:

Information superhighway: a telecommunications infrastructure or system (as of television, telephony, or computer networks) used for widespread and usually rapid access to information ; especially : internet – called also infobahn, information highway

function: noun

date: 1983

Twenty-six years later, I have come to the realization that the information superhighway is now embedded in every facet of our lives. Access to the information superhighway is not a luxury anymore – it exists as a framework to which we share and receive information with each other.

Here are my personal milestones from this year:

1. my mom and I had our first Facebook twitter exchange today
2. at my wedding this year, a photo during the wedding was published a few seconds later
3. updating my status from single to married involved a few keystrokes on the mobile phone
4. checking the balance on checking account can be done on the go: I can either call my bank and use their automated menu, or log in to their web site on my phone
5. I can play Street Fighter with other people online, and also talk to them in real time
6. I can drive around and receive audio notifications from my phone when there is a speed trap or camera-enforced stop light on an upcoming street intersection
7. I can apply for a credit card online, print out a confirmation e-mail that has my account number, and use it the same day at a retail store
8. I can create a calendar event, then share details of the event globally, including last-minute change notifications

Over the span of my lifetime, I should be able talk to my TV and say the word “buy”, then a product materializes inside my nano box, and thus completing a retail transaction from home. No transportation fees. No carbon emissions.

When I walk into my garage space, my vehicle will already have the motor running, seat and fasten a seatbelt over me  automatically, and will ask me where I want to go.

When I have a cat, the pet door of our home will automatically let her in, even when I am not around. The pet door can also sense if my cat wants to go out of the house, and will let her out whenever she wants.